Tuesday, December 21, 2010

Whee!! Just back frm SCC!!!..Kinda miss the camp now!!..haha

~Tis is the first day we take the pic from our group!!Stitch!hehe:D~
~But sadly 2 person which is Shao qian n yee siew is not inside..haiz~
~Nvm la it ok, although u r not here bt u r always in ourgroup!!..haha:D..whee!!^_^~

So yeah,I just back frm camp two days ago. Was really tired but seriously now i kinda miss that moment~haha..lol:P..So how r u guys been? Hopefully everyone and everyting is alright. I miss u guys alot esp my family and my frens!..haha:D although i knw i have a lit frens..>.<>.<
~First day of SCC~
Alright first day was not a really nice day to me n not a happy day la..It is because the few days past sis stomach pain dao rly very pain ma...She pain dao cant even stand..So, before the first day we pack our things together lo..and we pray hard she really can go lo..seriously..But after tmr..Around 4smthg am, she woke me up and cried infront of me..I was so shocked. She said she very pain n cant go already. She kept say sorry. I replied her, Its okay, dun worry..everyting will be fine alright..U still have next yr..to go..The main important tings is ur health. And i also kept cried without non-stop. I wanna slept back but i cant..And sis said she cant stand it anymore, she rly wanna go hospital. She didnt go hospital in her life before n we 2 also scared to see doc. And now she said she wanna go, its means rly rly pain..I dunno how suffer it is..but i see her face rly become very white n weak...So i quickly called dad bring her to hos..Dad said together out..cause very inconvinience fetch here n thr~..So i quickly go prepared everyting very quickly seriously..Dun even have appetite to eat breakfast anymore..Just drink something n quickly bring her to KPJ hos.. We went with dad ,sis and grandma to accompany her. T.T..She keep shout fr pain in the car..I keep stand and tell myself not to cry cause i dunwan make sis cried and scare somemore..So i keep tell myself dun cry and hope faster send her to hos. When reach thr..I just cnt stop myself frm crying..T.T..=(..Sis was lying thr..Dad called me to filled up the details..I dun even dare to inside the room. I forced myself to smile infront of her n cheer up her. I cried at outside. Really very exp the treatment..400smthg haven include Camp money..Cause dad called dun go..If not she suffer thr later..She very sad n moody. After seeing doc, dad bring me to Stadim Kajang gather lur..Everyone almost reach le..So scared i was the lastest wan..But i not scared them if im late also cause of sis i feel is worth it. Luckily , i didnt late..So the first ting i went is find my division then tell my CP that my sis is not going~ She ask why and say okay..Thy say tsk tsk...rly wasted..all those lo..I was so upset..N keep cried n wipe..dunwan let ppl see..cried in the corner..Then my frens saw and ask y like that lo..then masuk barisan, dunno why my tears just cant stop dropping..But i dun tink someone saw la..Then in bus dunno sit with who. I rly very upset n emo lo that time. Then i sit with my senior, since i dunhav ppl sit with. Then we reach thr almost like 8am i tink?..Then we gather lo our area wan..After gather we put up our tents and put our luagage inside , clean and etc.
After that we had our lunch..Wa go there that time damn long queue lo..Seriously..wait, wait ,wait seriously very long..and eat curry chicken and rice if i not mistaken..haha..lol:P..

After eating le..Then ice breaking lu..Whee luckily no need like last yr to wear full uni for open ceremony..So we just wear half uni..haha:P..Then waited very long for the ice breaking lo..seriously..Sit thr very long le..Then my fren why so long haven start de?..The ice also melt dy lo..When wan break leh?..haha..lolxP..smthg lidat gua..I also dun rly remember le..hehexD..Then few more min start ice breaking lu..Then no mood lo..as mention above..like so many tings happen..Then we also know each other and say our name n area..First time is like very kekok la..After that thy ask did i have nick name?..I was so shy lo as normal..lol:x..I said no..Thy A PON give my name as YOYO..zz..lol..haha..cause my name YY ma..haha..then i say anyting lo..Okay lo..Then our group is STITCH le..haha..xD..At first i dun rly like pur group la..but then i try my best to coperate and with them lo..So first activity we do is do the banner lo..At first thy ask who know drawing..Actually i wanna help n say i knw..but then i paiseh la..And dunwan lo..Give ppl chance la..Somemore i saw the girl dunno what name, but ppl called her apple..She seems so interested,..So i let her..its okay..Then we plan for the cheer lo..See them so quiet n like no idea..I just cant stand it dy..Wasted alot of time..So decided to say smthg lo..finally all done then..Bath all those n eat dinner..bla bla bla~hahaxP..Then at night go for the course ''knowledge of the order'' lo..Almost wan sleep listen to his speech lo..T.T..After that when end..Plan to have supper and study fr the course. But then i didnt have supper in canteen at last..I just study at there ny alone..cause the other frens say me like annoying..then kay lo..study myself..Study until 1smthg am like that..Then thy say wanna off light dy..So went back tent sleep~..When went back, all the member almost sleep le..me very scared the exam lo..And i can sleep almost the whole night..haiz...tats all for the first day gua..Hmm..,Sorry guys my memories not good..so i cnt rly remember..except some special memories la..haha:P..Kay la for now just share u guys first day 1st la..I seriously dun feeling continue dy..haha..lazy..lol:P..>.<..kay nites n take care ya!!<3..:d



Tuesday, December 14, 2010

>.<..sobsob

My sis still in a quite bad condition..Gosh..=(..Seriously i dont knw she will go with me tmr a not..I hope yes..pls..God!!..T.T..Anyway just wanna post some videos here..The songs is from the movie named ''Rapunzel''..Its seriously nice..I just love it..MAyb i abit childish perhaps??..
Enjoy~..=)


I love this song..Its kinda meaningful in the movie..haha:P..<3


Sunday, December 12, 2010

Speechless..T.T

Hey..im finally back to blogging again~..Im really really very unhappy now~..I seriously dunno what kind of person in myself.. Tis few days..went out with parents and goin to have camp on next wed..so yeah..haven pack anyting yet..

So tis few days..i really very free..and no one really online..seriously was bored.. So, my mind sud came through alot of question.. I keep tink all the ''IF'' question.. Its like if i died , did anyone wil knw it except for my family?.. and alot more.. Today my sis having a terrible stomach pain..after that i have too..i eat some pain killer for stomach pain and bcome better..but my sis was urine infection i guess.. And she said she cant stand that pain anymore..She said she wanna go hos..I rly cant imagine it..I wont accompany her..cause if i go it will be more worst cause ofc i will cry..And she never went hos before in her whole life!!..At last she said she bcome better..and she dunwan go anymore..

I understand..what she feel..cause we 2 really very scared injection..until now..I knw im rly inmature..Anyway i just very very disappointed..cause no one understand me.. I did everyting with a reason!..I doesnt mean anyting..y u all just cant trust me?..Y all my frens just like so perfectly and me what?..And why whenver i wanna chat and tell smthg to somebody..no one is bside me to share it out??

I just hope just somebody will just support me when im down.. Try to understand no matter wht.. Support me although im wrong.. Just anyting will make me comfort tats all.. And few ppl did it..for me..sometimes.. Although it is sometimes.. I already feel very very very happy and satisfied with it.. And i can tell u i will nvr fgt u in my life!..hehexP.. So yeah i guess tats all fr nw.. Miss u guys..Take care!!..I wanted to have a wonderful christmas..How good if alot of ppl bside me and celebrate..haha:D..kla..bye..see ya!!..<3

Tuesday, December 7, 2010

Woots~ i love surprises and its a touch surprises!!..hahax)

So , nothing much today. Just as usual, online and chatting. Its getting boring and boring. I dunno why i wont feel bored when ''you'' chat with me, but i know u r busy always. And now u r getting alot of ''fans'' haha. Its normal fr u :)..cause i knw u will be a famous singer one day! Well..today was kinda surprise..seriously..haha..secret..wont let u guys knw~..hahaxP. Hmm..actually all this while i have been thinking, u r really good..and im not good in anyting~..honestly, and i dun even knw what im good in.. If can i hope i knw too. But i dont knw. So i was keep wonder, am i qualified to be a fren with u guys?? Hmm..im rly dissapointed of myself. Nyway someone call me not to tink negative side, and i wil try not to. But i cant guarantee..hahax)..And now i really really wanna Thank you who all this while supporting when im down, when im alone , and everyting. And tried to understand me~Uknw who u are~ I rly appreciated it alots!. I will nvr forget in my life! And bcos of me , sometimes i even make u sleep so late. I just can say ''DUI BU CHI'' > sorry!!. I rly dunno what i can do for u anymore. What i can help, i will definitely help. So yeah. Tats all i guess~

Thank you guys again! And yeah miss n love ya!..<3..

Monday, December 6, 2010

Feeling emo without reason..=.=''


Nothing much..The feelings is still the same..Its something like ''rojak''..lol..Its like a lot of fruits inside...and alot of taste~..Smthg like very complicated..Cause have alot of taste such as spicy , Add Imagebitter , sour , sweet..and others until dunno bcome what taste anymore..or even tasteless~>.<..hmm..so i just wish everyting will be fine~..and evryting will be fine soon~..Seeing my fren happy..im happy for he or her happy too..:P..so just a short post..waiting for someone to blog and see...haha..take care guys!..nights..<Add Image3..sweet>.<..T.T..eye bags bcome bigger..>.<..kla bye~

Saturday, December 4, 2010

I cant stand it anymore!!..T.T

Pheww..the time here now is almost 3a.m..I cant sleep..nowadays..having nightmare..always sleep half way..wake up in all a sudden..=(((..Hmm..now i really dunno how to express my feelings here..I dunno whr should i start frm..Cause ystdy *bfore 12am* happened alot of tings..I keep cried n cried..without stopping..I just cant accept it..Although i rly do my rly rly BEST to cheer up..but i just cant stand it anymore..! Dad say out something...I knw im not a daughter..I knew it..I not a GOOD person..im not a good fren...im just not good in everyting!!..Im not thinking negatively..im promise im not..but it prove to me..i am!..Im trying my best..Sometimes i even feeling to my parents about my feelings..but thy dun knw what i feel..and sometimes i feel shy eventhough thy r my parents!..I know im not a good daughter..i just hate it!..I thought i dun have friend..at least i have family members..but y no one rly understand me??..Y??..since when im young..I even tell myself fgt about the past..and fgt what had happened in my friendship prob..sometimes i even act good to them..Cause i tink beeing a fren is better than an enemy..right??..U know what??..Thy act good to me is because thy got intention n thy r taking my benefits frm me..U know how hurts when u knw it..n u have to do a fake smile infront of them??..Y did u all wan to do tis to me n my sis??..I know im nt a smart girl..my brain function slow..And so what?..This is not i want it..This is just me..And u tell me..I dun have brain??..Wth!!..YEs we dun have brain??..And u r the smartest person,..happy??..And i nvr have a choice!!..I very suffer..All the seniors..dun rly like us..frens i guess too..i just dunno y..?..
When my mum scolded u..U tink is all i wanted?..i feel guilty too..I just dunno how to explain..Nyway if u still wanna tink me is most stupid person in the world!..I dun mind!..I have already normal with nyway..It just like when thy need u..Thy just bought u..And whn thy dun need u..Thy threw u way~..Hmm..and..i dunno im doing all this while is what is right a not..im seriously very dissapointed..And im seriously shamed of myself beeing of ''ur'' fren..Im not qualified at all..moreover..I should not dream anymore..Stop it!..I rly dun like myself..>.<..=((...I not a good person~..Im not trying to be negative..its just frm my feelings..Nyway..i will be okay i tink..cheer up fr myself..=.=''..Take care..miss ya!..nites n morning!..T.T

Thursday, December 2, 2010

Days past rly fast..I hope the time can stop now!!hahaxD

Hey guys..finally im blogging back..I wanna blog already past few days ago..but i lazy..haha:P..Nthg much la..Just as normal..Really bored..seriously..i can just keep stare at the screen without doing anyting..hmm..i seriously long time didnt chat with ''someone''..I just dunno y when im free, ''xxx'' will just like appear in my mind..seriously kinda weird..However..i just wonder what ''xxx'' busy and how is going on thr..hopefully everyting fine..Just went outing ystdy..Although its quite a simple day..nthg much..but i do enjoy~..I tink it is because i super duper love Christmas month!!..The decorations is super amazing and awesome!!..Nice!..I like christmas not because of decorations but the mood~..ITs like very peace..charm..relax..joyful and others!!..I hope this month will be the BEST month..cause school are going reopen~..and i tink i will seldom online n seldom chat ady..=(..Hmm..so yeah..next next week going camping somemore!..>.<..Hopefully it will be fun~..I rly hope i will enjoy tis month and hopefully will be a happy and wonderful christmas!!.And my exam result r comin out soon..rly scared..i hope it doesnt dissapoint me again!!.>.<..although sometimes im abit down..but i always tell myself dun tink so much~..I do remember what somebody told me..Just tink positve way!!..hmm..so I wanna tel u guys that Enjoy ur Christmas Month too..:P..love ya!!<3..take>
Nites and sweet dreams~..