I hope i never exist in this life..and this is me..=(

Hmm...im back blogging again..A second can happens many tings..appreciate every moment, very second..

i dunno y i had been like this??...No matter how times i explain how do i feel, still no one knows..

I doesn't mean to be like this..i know no matter how i hate myself, this is still me...
So why do i have too?? I think i rly should nt exist and born in this world..when a new fren comes to me, im really happy...but when the thing start...i feel it becomes worst?? It is because of me...evryting my problem..

Did u know i doesnt wanna be tat?? In school time...wen i passing u all..''my frens''...last time..you all never know me lidat...wat can i do??..I go to you all and say hi n tryin to make fun ...so to be more close?? u thought is fun??..I so scare u all guys dun like..i can feel it..Im speechless, im tired...i tink i should stop doing fake smile infront of u all..no fren ..den just tat all la~..I dunwan to be problematic child..dunwan to give hope to myself anymore..just do wadeer i can..Although i know nothing good in me...i tink i should stop blog forever??..hmm yeah..tats all~~Take care guys!!..i will be missing u all!!<3...bye..nites!!:D

Dead post??..T.T..Is there anyone beside me??..Can i just hugged or tell u smthg whenever i feel so down??..zz

Hey...

Hmm...finally i'm back blogging..I knw my blog is so dead...cause i actually feeling to delete..but it's okay..cause i can blog out here to say out my feelings..cause i feel annoying also if i sharing my with my feeling..Although i hope someone is always beside me,..when i need someone help..she/he will beside me n help me out!!..

Actually this post will be pissed off n emo post..but i trying to tell myself to avoid any emo problems n all those..

I seriously have many weakness..tats y i do really hate myself alot..I not in anyting..im not trying to saying myself lidat...but i realise i am..


My piano is bad..all like ''half baldi''..study not good..Dancing lagi no need say...since last time till now...no improvement...I wad also scare..animals scare,.inject scare,..wad also scare..wad else i not scare??>.<...argh!!..i dunno y myself be lidat also..T

I seriously love dancing!!..But i do not have the conditions..i feeling to stop..cause it seriously kinda suffering..i feeling to stop last time dy..but i tell myself..perhaps i may improve??..but no improvement at all..it..seriously make upset..seriously..today i tell mum i feeling to stop..and my mum give me a shock expression n answered me can..but u have to pay me back from 5yrs old the fees till now..before i asking her..i ady knw she will say tat..cause its so wasted...i do know tat..last time i didnt stop..just because i keep tell myself dun be so fast give up..n dun so waste mum money..but i have been so many yrs didnt taking exam..cause im weak mayb..n the teacher..i also dunno la..haiy..so still have to continue..yoon yee..stand it..!!

A day really may happen many tings..so we should appreciate our daily life..one day by a day..I'm trying to avoid the emo problems..cause i dunwan to be sad..cause since days still have to goes..y dun be happy??..It seriously easy to say..but its in not easy to do..i really sometimes cant stand anymore..T.T...I keep telling myself..i can do it!!But at last..i dissapointed myself??..

I seriously hope i can get 7a im pmr pls!!..I really hope..god bless me yar,..hopefully i can overcome n seriously do my best!!=(((...k..its seriously kinda late..its 2.32 morning...zz..cant sleep..=.=..

Kla..bye guys..see u..take care!<3